Will I (we) make it?

Shortly upon arrival to Prague, I had a chance to spend a very nice chilled out evening with couple of old friends. At one point of the evening, one of my friends said something similar to “I am curious if half a year from now, you will make it or if you will get ‘crushed’ by the reality here”.

What an interesting question, I was thinking to myself. Besides the interesting journey to find the answer (which indeed I can only really know in 6 months time), it also lead me to some thoughts and questions…

Obviously there was something in who I was and how I came across that  suggested that I am different from ‘the reality’ here that prompted this question.

But I was also wondering, what is really behind this question? What fuels the strange combination of curiosity, hope, challenge, slight resentment towards the ‘reality’ and a degree of resignation towards the world around? What does it say about the environment in my country that people ask such questions (not the first time I was asked something similar)? What does it even mean to ‘make it’ or to be crushed?

It also makes me think, do we ever allow ourselves to question, why are the things around us the way they are? How did they came to be and what is their natural evolution? Do we venture beyond what we know and allow to stay confidently in not knowing? How often do we allow ourselves the play and joy of unrestricted dreaming to fueling how we intentionally shape the reality around us instead of allowing it only to shape us? Do we live our lives as survivors or as creators?

I guess only time will show answers to the question my friend has asked me. I am quite curious myself actually. Coming back to live in Prague is a big challenge for me. There is lots I see possible, lots I would like to gently seed into the system of the country I love so much. Not because there is anything to fix, change or impose but because there is so much more possible here than many people realize. And there is so much to learn after 5 years of not living here, it feels like coming to a brand new country…

What do I need to learn? Who will be my companions? What things are already happening here that I can connect to? What are the steps and their timing? What is really possible here? What will unfold on this journey? What are the events and people I will meet that I don’t even know yet?

And ultimately… Will I (we) make it? What do you think?